alone

how do you feel if you are alone? are you sad?, happy?, excited?, anxious?...

i am sitting back in my bed with light's on while listen to Charice Pampengo's song over and over again. no one at home. no one is calling me. no one is texting me. i feel like numb, loser, boring and say whatever do you wanna say. people loves to enjoy while their still young. i am not the old 'illi' who loves to go out partying or having fun or hanging out untill midnight. it is just like waisting your time and money too. i love to be alone. i love to sit back at home. i love to do my own work. i love to update my blog or tmblr.

se7en

1...2...3...4...5...6...7...

HAPPY MONTHLY ANNIVERSARY BABY...

7 months we have been thru together...
no other man can replace you from my heart....

I love you so fucking much. ;-*

boredom weekend

p/s: baby, can you do this for me ??? ;)

thank you

thank you for being my friend.
thank you for being nice to me.
thank you for stalking my blog, if you want too.
thank you for being sarcastic with me.
thank you for hating me.
thank you for deleting me.
thank you for choosing the person who are not to be trusted anymore.
thank you for making my life happy.
thank you! thank you! thank you!

i'm back

OMG OMG...at last i can post my blog. sorry for the long wait. these past few weeks, i am so so fucking busy with my holiday plus my internet in KL was corrapted. damn TM. haha. so, these are short activities during my holiday...

1. family trip- Bandung, Indonesia
2. girls hang out with Fieza and Ella- Curve, Ikea, Cineleisure
3. new year eve with Izmir, Jeje, Topeq, Lina, Jeng, Syafiq Bidin, Syafiq Sudin, Hani, Kay- Hartamas Square
4. hang out with with Izmir, Syafiq Sudin, Ama, Fak, Chaqnir- Castle, Ampang
5. hang out with my love- Curve, Cineleisure
6. karaoke session with Sara, Fieza, Syafiq Sudin, Syafiq Bidin, Ama, Lola, Sepet, Kay, Jeng, Topeq, Yob, Maon, Izmir- Ampsquare, Sunway Pyramid
7. Kyra's 2nd Birthday Party- Sri Kembangan
8. Erina's 4th Birthday Party- BTHO

there's a lot of activities i have done during my holiday and some of it are too privacy. only certain people know about it. ;)

p.s i miss you

i miss your voice. i miss your smell. i miss your face. i miss your tummy. i miss your joke. i miss your blurry face. i miss when we have fight. i miss dating with you. i miss to talk with you. i miss to hug you. i miss watching movies together. i miss cuddle with you. i miss to punch you. i miss your laugh. i miss everything about you.

cepat laa balik dari hutan tue. you nak kahwin dengan anak tok bi ker bby. hehe. ;p

thank you

thank you for telling the truth. now i know, all this time i missjudge the wrong person and im sorry for everything. you should come forward earlier before things happen. just forget about the past and move on with new life. no need to remember what was happening before. im waiting for you to forgive me and waiting for you to say sorry to me. im hoping that you change as a better person. i am trying to accept you slowly. i am being myself and need a time to fix it. hope to see you again. ;)

p/s: i am HAPPY with my own life. kalau ada masalah, pergi mampos. hahaha.

lies

people lies because they have their own reason. sometimes they want to do something without their parents/gf/bf/friends know. but sometimes people lies without no reason. if you are with person that you love, don't lie if you are with them. we will understand and give you time. no need to make a promise if you can't keep your own word. people don't understand why other people need to lie. i also lie to my parents, my boyfriend, and my friends. at the end, i am telling the truth. telling the truth is the best solution and not being a liar. i am give up with a liar. we are almost twentyone and act like an adult.

sincerely,

illi fatin.

QC

have u ever heard about 'Queen Control'? QC is the person who always control another person to do this and that until the person forgot about themself and others. people who are being QC feels that they are more greater than others. it just like u bullying your brother or sister to do your work. in a better word, being a slave or "kambing hitam". this matter is always happen in a relationship. people did not realize how bad is the person who being a QC.

some of example for person being a QC in a relationship:
* every work that you should do, you ask other person to do it.
* if you want to go somewhere, you ask the person who close to you to accompany you.
* if you want anything that valueable, you make a face and make the person that you love feels guilty for you and buy it for you.
* if you feel lonely, you ask your lover to come and cheer u like a princess.
* if your lover wants to hang out with friends, you will ask many questions like a cop or ask him/her to stay at home.
* if you are not satisfied with your lover, you put on blame to the others.

Consequences:
* people around you not satisfied with what you have done.
* people will misjudge you when they knew the real you.
* people will hate you being a QC.
* your relationship with your close friends are not good like before.

the end.
p/s: sape yang makan cili, dia laa terasa pedasnya. all the stories are based from my experience.

less drama on 2010

Open new book for 2010. This year, i will turn up to twentyone. Its really exciting to get reach of 21 but at the same time i feel sad because im getting old. Haha. So people, this is my new resolutions for year 2010 ;

1. More matured and think like an adult.
2. Get at least once dean list.
3. More respectful towards my parents.
4. Hoping more cheerful in my life.
5. Hoping the bad memories will go far away from my life.
6. Hoping me and my bunch bunch are together untill the end of the world.
7. Save a lot of money and go holiday with my two besties, Ella and Fieza.
8. No more drama queen in future.
9. Be confident in every single thing.
10. Less sarcatism.

Pray for me. ;)

01.01.10

Location: Hartamas Square

Time: Midnight

People: Hani & Syafiq Sudin, Kay, Syafiq Bidin, Jeng, Topeq & Lina, Izmir & Jeje

HAPPY NEW YEAR PEEPS!!