nightmare

every night, i always had a bad dreams. its all about my pasts. why it always happen to me? i have try to forget all the bad, disaster and what so ever you named it as a "evil memories". im sick of it.
i have a new life after i recover by myself whats the meaning of "life". at the same time, the memories still keep on my mind. sometimes the "evil memories" make my life miserable. i can't think as a normal person. i feel guilty toward that persons, i feel anxious, not enough sleep etc etc.

'GOD, please help me to bring back the joy for me. im happy with my life now. i don't want to turn back. i want to leave in peaceful with my love. amin.'